| 2 | "msg": "I am a sinner, and I ask your forgiveness from you, Father, for I have asked forgiveness from the living. I am 47 years old, I am married and I have two wonderful children and a beloved and unique wife, with whom we have been together for 25 years.In my youth, I sinned by drinking alcohol, first in small quantities with friends on weekends, then more and more, not realizing, and most importantly, not realizing that I was causing suffering to my entire family, because drunkenness is a mortal sin, it refers to the mortal sin of gluttony. Yes, the body needs food, but we also know that the desire for satiety can lead to mortal sin when the meaning of life becomes the womb, its saturation. People live to eat, overeat, and don\\\\\\'t keep their fasts. From this sin, the next sin is generated \\\\u{2013} lust. When you\\\\\\'re going to relax with friends after work and \\\\\\\"spit\\\\\\\" on family and household values. You go out with them and have fun, deceiving your family. You start lying to your wife, deceiving her and abusing her trust, giving rise to the next sin \\\\u{2013} lying. And then the constant promises and vows that it won\\\\\\'t happen again, this is the last time, but the demon inside you is stronger, and you are weak. And everything starts all over again after a while. And then comes another sin, since lying is associated with the desire to appear better than it really is, which is a manifestation of pride. It is difficult for you to admit that you are wrong and the family starts swearing, anger takes over, that no one understands you, etc., but by doing so you justify only yourself, your actions and your weakness. As the years passed, my children grew up, and the eldest is already 20 years old, and you know what? - I find myself thinking that my son has somehow grown up too fast and, most importantly, without me. No, of course, I paid attention and care to him, and he grew up in a family, but unfortunately, it didn\\\\\\'t seem enough to me now. He left the family too quickly, his childhood and youth passed too quickly, and now he has gone to study in another city and I miss him very much. The youngest daughter, she is now 14 years old and I try to devote more time to her, looking back at the situation with my son, I don\\\\\\'t want this to happen to her again. Currently, I have not consumed alcohol for two years, I have almost no old friends left, as it turned out, we were connected only by alcohol, and not by some far-fetched, as it seemed to us, other common interests. I thank the Lord that my wife turned out to be an intelligent and wise woman who, despite everything, was able to preserve our family and family values, and we are currently doing well. I admire her steadfastness and wisdom for this. How much pain and grief I caused her with my actions in the past \\\\u{2013} forgive me, Father. My wife and I don\\\\\\'t go to church very often, but we go to confession, communion, and just visit churches in different cities. It made me feel better to live and breathe, and most importantly, it made me feel better. Forgive me, heavenly Father, for I have sinned. Amen. ", |